The Start Of The School Year

Since starting year 12 life has been pretty packed. It’s made me realise I enjoy routine, a basic plan that I follow most days. Don’t get me wrong I love days free from plans where I can lie in bed until late and watch Gilmore Girls. But I also love having days just packed full of events both small and big.

I’m still looking for a balance between every aspect of my life, including blogging, seeing friends and school work. Sometimes it’s out of my control especially when I get numerous essays to write for school. But I’m trying and I shall carry on trying.

For A levels I’m taking Early Modern History, English Literature, Latin and Maths. Honestly I’m enjoying three and a half of them… half of my maths is not particularly fun for a teacher reason but hopefully in the new year things will change. Before I stepped into my first a level lessons I thought I knew which subject I was best at, enjoyed the most and would probably take at university if I decided to go. However once I got into my A levels I grew to learn that that subject wasn’t the one I strived the most in. A levels are a whole new game to GCSEs, they are deeper and wider in various ways. They are different.

Throughout year 11 I considered taking the majority of subjects I took at GCSE as I enjoyed them as they offered quite different class experiences and knowledge. But towards the end of my GCSE exams I identified which ones I wanted to learn more about or extend my abilities in.  Each A level subject I’m taking I picked for different reasons but they also share the same reason which is that I enjoy them the most. If you are reading this and having to decide which subjects to take, pick the ones you enjoy the most: Some people choose subjects based on the careers they want to go into but don’t favour those subjects, the careers you will enjoy the most follow the subjects you enjoy the most.

Currently I’m lost to what career I would like to go for but that’s okay. It’s a long way off. Now I’m trying to make the decisions that need to be made first like what university course I’m interested in or even if I want to go to university.

Merry Christmas.

November Days

November has flown past and now nearly December too. At the start of November I turned seventeen and was incredibly fortune enough to spend my birthday with two of my closest friends away from home. The weekend brought nights full of singing and laughing, walks along the sea, and moments I’d like to keep forever. I don't have many photos that I can show you but here are a collection of some, including copies of photos I took on a disposable camera.

Hope you've had a good week and have a great Christmas.

A Quiet Getaway

During the summer I went away somewhere near the coast with my family for a long weekend and I took some photos during our visit. So I thought it would be nice to share our trip with you. I hope you enjoy the photos above and have a good weekend.

Back To Summer

Somehow time has passed exceptionally fast since summer, every inch of my days have been filled by something such as completing school work or seeing friends whenever possible. I’ve both enjoyed and not enjoyed being busy.

Starting sixth form has meant more questions about the future have been thrown my way. I’m struggling to decide what I want to do but I’m managing to identify what I know I don’t want to do, at least that’s a start.

Anyway here are some photos from my summer holidays. I hope you've had a good week and next week is even better.

Procrastination

 

A best friend and an enemy

It makes me happy in the moment but it leaves waving effects;

It doesn’t know when to stop.

It consumes me until the trance is broken: I push it away but it comes crawling back.

During the moment it shines bright but then it ruins me.

It somehow casts a shadow over me: Only someone or something big can save me.

As it engulfs me I lose sight of reality. It’s just me and it.

I think it’s time it stopped.

I wrote this in my notes on my phone during the exam period and even though it's quite messy and odd I thought it would be appropriate to post it the day before I receive my GCSE results. I felt the need to write about procrastination but wasn't sure how so I just kept on writing, trying to describe what it does to me.

So good luck to anyone receiving GCSE results tomorrow.

Losing My Imagination

There have been occasions when I’ve recognised I no longer share the same imagination I possessed when I was younger or even a year ago. I fear I could lose all my imagination forever, meaning all the creativity I own will evaporate. The prospect of this scares me as I feel I need creativity to write. And without an imagination life would be boring to me.

I don’t know what has caused me to write about this but it’s a fear of mine. Perhaps my lack of reading recently has punctured a hole in my imagination.

Sometimes it seems presenting creativity is easier done through the media of drawing rather than through words. But maybe it depends on what mood one is in. If you have any thoughts on this please let me know, I’m interested to know what you think.

So I shall stop there and wish you a good weekend.

A Summer Day

 

 

 

A day in mid-July brought me tranquillity as a close friend of mine and I meandered around under towering trees that were coated various shades of green and had a light picnic in the sunny weather England has given us recently.

I hope you enjoy the photos from our trip and have had a good week.

Career Thoughts

For the last few years I knew what career I wanted to achieve and I’ve always understood that could change. However it embarrassingly scared me when that happened at first. Looking back now I can’t fathom why it did but I presume it’s partly due to us individuals being comfortable with what we are used to: I’ve been used to having that career in my sights for so long, I’ve gradually become comfortable and at ease with the prospects of it and the possible challenges I would have to face to reach it.

However I now recognise this has opened me up to considering other careers which before now I had always brushed under the carpet. I feel enlightened by the freedom from barriers that I built myself unknowingly. I want to do more. More than what I believe I can achieve.

I often foolishly forget that there are more careers out there than I know of and I don’t have to be stapled down to one career for the rest of my life. I’m gradually becoming more familiar with the idea that I don’t need to have a plan and I’m recognising how this could provide me with more happiness.

So I currently have no plan for the future surrounding the world of work and it feels good. I hope you had a good weekend!